To Sleep Or Not To Sleep?

So for the past month this has been the scenario- 4 am on the dot, wake up because baby is moving a ton, have to got to the bathroom, then I lay in bed trying not to think of anything(David's suggestion) so that I can go back to bed. Look at the clock 4:30, lay there some more look at the clock 4:45, then 5:00, then 5:30, somewhere around 6:00am I fall back to sleep for a few short minutes(it seems) before having to get up to wake Aiden up for school and make a lunch for him, make sure he eats a good breakfast and that he is moving fast enough to not miss the bus. I keep wondering when the lack of sleep will catch up to me and I can finally sleep all night. I don't mean to sound like I am complaining, I am just tired of it. When I got on to type this I read my sister in laws blog and realized that the few things that I am facing right now in my life are very trivial things compared to others trials. A while ago a friend had said to me that she thought I had changed in the past few months, this has really bothered me and caused me to ponder about the "changes" in my life. A few months ago I got a new calling, being a president of an organization I have found is way different than just being a councilor (I would much rather be a councilor, actually I would love my old calling back.) I always thought that presidents delegated the responsibilities and that there wasn't a ton of stuff on my shoulders, boy was I wrong. I have been in a YW presidency before and thought it was a wonderfully functioning program, I am not feeling that way about mine (maybe It's because I had a good president to follow and I am not a good president.) I am really trying not to complain because I did say yes, and I want to serve the Lord. I have felt the added stress of that greatly not to mention that a week or so after I was called I found out that I was pregnant(not the best timing, but I suppose it is the Lords timing). Since I was called to my new calling I have had strep throat twice and have had an added worry of trying not to get a kidney stone since I was told that If I got pregnant it would defiantly happen. I also have a family to take care of and not to mention that I do not take the time to read my scripture, say prayers, write in my journal, or all the things that I would like to do because once the kids go to bed I sit down on the couch to "relax" and ultimately fall asleep there. So have I "changed", yes probably so. Is it a good thing? It is supposed to be, isn't that what helps us grow? So, I will try not to let it bother me that I've changed, and in so doing have lost friends. Anyways I don't usually share so much with the world but here are my random thoughts at 4:00 am! Am I tired? Am I hormonal? Who knows.